tears and clarity
over the past week I have been thinking to myself about this job. I just had this overwhelming feeling that I didn't want it, but rational part of my brain kept interrupting me and telling me I'm crazy if I don't take this job.
then I realized...when have I really ever listened to that part anyway? wasn't I about to pack up my life and move to a foreign country...across an OCEAN? helllOOOO!
okay, it wasn't just me that helped me see the light. my mom did too. she knows me so well and woke me up a little to the fact that I'm PREGNANT and will have a BABY at home soon...this job would be 12 hours from door to door with the commute (long island to manhattan). The most important thing to me is not burning any bridges. If I took the job and then quit after the baby, I can almost forget about ever working there anymore, having assured them in the beginning that I wouldn't do that. If I am honest NOW and upfront about the fact that this is my first, that I have no idea how I will feel about working fulltime, and that this is a very hard decision b/c I want the position soooo badly, at least they can respect my honesty and hopefully keep me in mind for future positions. As my mother said, I am young....God will put another wonderful opportunity like this before me when my priorities can be managed together. If I take this one now, I am putting family second, and that is NOT me.
of course, I haven't talked to the firm yet. I am waiting for a call from one of the principals. he is calling with more questions/comments and a salary offer. I want to hear him out, give it a day and then call to reject. Should I write a formal letter of rejection? I don't know, but I just pray that I am able to express how diffucult it is for me to say no to this opportunity.
yowzers
then I realized...when have I really ever listened to that part anyway? wasn't I about to pack up my life and move to a foreign country...across an OCEAN? helllOOOO!
okay, it wasn't just me that helped me see the light. my mom did too. she knows me so well and woke me up a little to the fact that I'm PREGNANT and will have a BABY at home soon...this job would be 12 hours from door to door with the commute (long island to manhattan). The most important thing to me is not burning any bridges. If I took the job and then quit after the baby, I can almost forget about ever working there anymore, having assured them in the beginning that I wouldn't do that. If I am honest NOW and upfront about the fact that this is my first, that I have no idea how I will feel about working fulltime, and that this is a very hard decision b/c I want the position soooo badly, at least they can respect my honesty and hopefully keep me in mind for future positions. As my mother said, I am young....God will put another wonderful opportunity like this before me when my priorities can be managed together. If I take this one now, I am putting family second, and that is NOT me.
of course, I haven't talked to the firm yet. I am waiting for a call from one of the principals. he is calling with more questions/comments and a salary offer. I want to hear him out, give it a day and then call to reject. Should I write a formal letter of rejection? I don't know, but I just pray that I am able to express how diffucult it is for me to say no to this opportunity.
yowzers
posted by Emily Clancy LoPorto @ 1:17 PM
1 Comments:
At 1:59 AM ,
Tracie P. said...
i can imagine how difficult it must be, but i can also imagine how difficult it would be to leave an infant for 12 hours a day. he/she will need you...more than any perspective employer! i think your dear mother is right :)
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